Himig

Paano mo nga ipapaliwanag ang ligaya kung ang kasabay nito ay takot?

Paano ba bigkasin ang mga salita kung ito’y minsan ng nagdala ng kirot?

Maaari nga bang lumuha at masaktan dahil sa labis na hatid mong saya?

Sumanib sa akin ang kalagayan at ganap sa isang perya

Halakhak ng damdamin umaagos hanggang sa aking isipan

Sumisipol ng bagong tugtugin at kay gandang musika

Yan ang iyong dulot sa aking pagkatao at buong kalooban

Ang lahat ay tila isang musikero na gustong may ipadinig,

Inaaral na matutunang tumugtog ng kanyang guitara

Nangangapa, sumasabay sa kung saan dalhin ng himig

Yan ay damdamin na tila hindi ko ma-awit sayo ng tama

Ako baga ay parang musmos na sugatan ang tuhod

At ikaw ay bagong kalaro na handang magpasaya dito

Bagamat hindi handa ang puso kong lagi nalang natitisod

Sa labis na ligaya at ngiti na dulot mo, naghihilom muli ito

Ngunit, paano mo ipapaliwanag ang ligaya kung ang kasabay nito ay takot?

Paano ba bigkasin ang mga salita kung ito’y minsan ng nagdala ng kirot?

Maaari nga bang lumuha at masaktan dahil sa labis na hatid mong saya?

Kung ako’y maging handa para sayo, ibibigay mo ba ng buo ang puso mo?

-Jackie Perfinan

Painful Bliss

you were bound to convey pleasure and pain,
she was ready to accept them as if to sustain
her heart with the prowess to endure and bear
the heart that bleeds and relentless to tear

you screamed passion for someone else's name
she chose to watch you hum a heartfelt hymn.
she blames you not since it was clear and plain
and her love is as solemn as the sound of rain

you were like a drug, a heroin; she was the user
she was drawn to cease, to let go and surrender
hence tried to withdraw, to forget, mostly grief
but her bliss is you, so she returns with relief

her love for you is like an ancient rocking chair
she moves, she cradles, yet it brings her nowhere
worst! it breaks, it collapses together with her
that may wound her soul and it will scar forever

then one night, that fateful hour, she broke down
dragged her stabbing pained self! this ruined one!
if you knew her, know she owned undying strengths 
She's a pearly white formica; hard rock, she stands

tonight, her feelings for you still pours so freely,
however, her finger touches that love with finality
she'll remember you always like her favorite summer
her suffering ends here but your memory will linger

she has loved you, it was eternal
yet she was wounded, she is a mortal

- jackie perfinan

Palaisipan

Bakit?

Bakit mas madalas na walang kasagutan sa mga tanong?
Ako ay manghuhula na lamang ba pagkat hindi na makapaghintay?
Bakit tila mas madaling sabihin ang mahal kita ngunit mahirap panatiliin?
Hindi gaya ng pagpapaalam na kay hirap bigkasin ngunit kay dali naman gawin...
Bakit nga ba likas sa atin na mas mabilis tayo ay mang-husga? 
Ngunit kay bagal ng pag usad ng pag-tanggap at pag-unawa?

Marahil bago pa man dumating ang mga kasagutan...
Ang lahat ng ito ay labis ko ng naintindihan...

Minsan...

Minsan ako ay sa hangi'y kumapit...
Nagpa-agos sa haplos ng araw sa tag-init...
Sumayaw sa ilalim ng bituin at kabilugan ng buwan...
Natulog habang bumubuhos sakin ang ulan...

Malamang kung ikaw ay nagbabasa nito ikaw ay naguluhan...
Magaling! Pagkat ako ay iyong naintindihan!

-jackie perfinan

Lavender, Rose, Lily and Her Heart

She had waved farewell, turned her back and drifted away,

From an island of lavender fields and torching addicting weeds

Yes, with blazing beliefs that this is not to lead her astray

The tormenting rush of blood through her veins of veins!    

She screams in mighty and fervent tears of freedom and glee

Touching a land of peaceful chaos, a land of roses where she lay

It allowed her to stay quite longer, thorns pricked her inner skins

“Unconfined, bluntly”- she thought of those pricks on her as fey

Alas! she dreamt of the scent of lavender in the islands and weeds

Gathered her oars, left the roses and rowed back to frightful agony

As she stroked to rough warm waters, a modest lily caught her way

The lily emulated, echoed her being, her voice, and all of her needs

She swore she would row from night ‘til day if the lily would stay

Before dawn a harsh truth snapped, the lily belonged to someone else

Short lived it was named, she painted it in oil as if it was not to flee

In the rise of the red moon, on the lavender field she ran and lay

The sweet scent lulled her, dragged her, pulling her to deep dreams

Dreams turned to delicious nightmares, found herself in a sad bay

She watched her soul roll in lavenders and roses and addicting weeds!

Bleeding, wounded, bruised, the rage and the scars she’d hated to see!

The oars all wrecked, her spirit drenched, her soul almost lost!

Her heart. It was broken. Her heart was still beating yet bleeding....

-jackie perfinan

Para kay Glaiza

Kay tagal mong hinintay itong tamis ng tagumpay,

natagalan man ng saglit, kailan ma'y hindi bumigay

kay raming mong oras na hindi man lang sinayang

patuloy kang nangarap,pag-asa'y hindi nadarang

O kay daming pagkakataon na ikaw ay tinanggihan

batid kong ikaw ay lumuha at ikaw nga ay nasaktan

marahil sa labis na pagod ang huminto'y iyong naisipan

hindi lamang pagod ng katawan at puso, kundi kalooban

Pero patuloy kang lumaban; sumabay sa agos ng buhay

ang iyong bituin ay inabot kahit minsan ay nanlupaypay

Bagamat may pait at hapdi ang sugat ng iyong nakaraan

hindi ka kailanma'y bumigay at patuloy ka ngang lumaban

Sa lahat ng iyong tinakbo at pinagdaanan sa iyong karera

Maging ang iyong hilig at pag-ibig sa musika't sa pagkanta,

Pag-mamahal ng pamilya at pag-papala sayo ng Lumikha

ay siyang naging iyong lakas at dahilan upang magpatuloy pa

Oo, kay tagal mo naghintay para sa tagumapay na kay tamis,

Ito nama'y dumatal sa tamang panahon dahil sa ika'y nag-tiis

Di baga pag pinaghirapan mas masarap akapin at tanggapin?

Karapatdapat sayo lahat dahil sa kabutihan na iyong angkin!

Maraming salamat sayo Glaiza Galura o de Castro ka man

Ikaw ang sa amin ay nag hatid ng inspirasyon at kaligayahan

Nawa'y ikaw ay patuloy pang pag-palain ng May Kapal

Pagkat ikaw ay talaga namang tunay naming minamahal 

-Jackie Perfinan

But My Love is a Candle

This fierce ache in my heart is a cowardly calm, 

A drop of boiling, melting candle wax on my palm

The intensity is pricking; the pain is stinging

Alas! as the wax hardens, the hurt starts vanishing

Then here's my love for you, not gone, still strong

Blame me not; I've fallen in love with you all along

Though you've chosen to pain me, it has not stopped me

My love for you is a river, screaming, raging so freely

If this ode of mine reaches you, be it known that it's true

What real love, passion; feelings of the soul can really do

Yes, like a candle, it may slowly die as the wax melts down

It melts yes, but when gathered can create a brand new one

You may elude or desert me, but my love is a candle

It melts yes, but when gathered can create a brand new one

                                                                                  -j.perfinan

Summer

You are a touch of warm breeze on my skin

a pretty laughter that brings me so much grin

You are an evening walk along a busy avenue,

and our quiet talk is just peaceful when I'm with you

Your dark brown eyes are my blissful thoughts

You are my sweet caramel and tiny alcohol shots

a dainty sunflower in a silent field is who you are

and my velvet skies when it's dark with no star...

- jackie perfinan