Life is Short

Life is Short

Wednesday, December 3, 2025

Fleeting Euphoria


There was a season once,
soft around the edges,
that brushed through my days
like sudden light,
unexpected, unclaimed,
yet impossible to ignore.

It moved among ordinary hours,
folded itself into quiet corners,
lingering in laughter,
in the hum between moments,
as if the world leaned closer
just to feel its warmth.

Two stops in a shared ride,
a gentle stretch of time,
brief, delicate,
yet deep enough to echo
long after it had passed.

The season carried its own spark,
turning the mundane into shimmer,
a warmth I hadn’t sought
but held in memory
as nights faded to quiet.

And then December came,
with its sharp clarity,
reminding all things
to find their proper place.
Some seasons are not meant to linger,
no matter how bright their arrival.

Still, it returns,
crossing my mind sometimes,
a faint light on familiar days,
the subtle warmth of sun
and the memory of air
that once carried its scent.

A season that arrived,
then passed,
not a chapter, not a promise
just a fleeting euphoria
that should belong to yesterday.


- JPP

Monday, December 16, 2024

Sprinkle of Pain

Nine summers ago, beneath a sky so wide,
I met a soul I’d never thought would reside
Within my heart. At first, no spark, no fire,
Just quiet warmth, a bond to admire.

You weren’t a dream spun of fantasy’s thread,
But real, alive, with truths unsaid.
Almost perfect, I dared believe,
A pedestal high, my mind deceived.

But as the days turned into years,
I saw the cracks, I tasted tears.
Your words could soothe, but also sting,
A bittersweet tune our hearts would sing.

Each moment shared, each fragile thread,
Bound us close, though pain was shed.
Yet in the ache, a beauty grew,
A love that thrived in the raw and true.

For love, I learned, is not just bliss,
Not only found in a tender kiss.
It’s patience, growth, and the wounds we tend,
The sprinkle of pain that hearts must mend.

Still, I wonder, as time moves slow,
Should we still stay or let each other go?
Are we a comfort too worn to keep,
Or roots grown strong, dug far too deep?


- JPP
16th December 2024


Sunday, April 15, 2018

La Douleur Exquise

like each day, how I feel for you is unique
like the deep oceans, it chooses to be silent,
like the last evening, theres no sunrise for it,
like rain in a stormy night, it chooses to pour

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Daylight

It is just like the peeping of a brand new morning,
Sending the studs of stars to sleep while flickering
The now awakened sun scatters brightness over the lands,
Revealing what the moon hid under the dark velvet skies
Unfolding and opening shallow and deeply kept treasures
Will we embrace what light has brought to us to muse?

Or do we choose to alter and refine what we cannot bear?

I choose to look at sunlight in a different perspective,
If its heat is less, on my face I shall allow it to receive
But its beauty is more alluring than its cool-calm shadow
Alas! It will soon be a spotlight and everything will show
How can I refuse a promising dawn and the break of sunrise?
what if last night's dream is not as beautiful as reality and I realize?

Would you still welcome tomorrow's pledge, daylight and dare?


-Jackie Perfinan-


Thursday, November 12, 2015

November

This present calm, shall I compare it to spring dawn?
For its quietness is lovely and sweet as rich nectar
Or shall I compare it to the blue green mountains,
where yellow daisies, lavenders and red roses bloom?

Whilst your heart is the haven to my wild thoughts,
Your words are the sun and moon that rise on my face 
your utterly silence is my perfect home and place
it is where my dusted and weary spirit comes to rest.

Our souls-they are the summer sky and autumn clouds,
belonging and floating in the same height and space
Your arms is where I choose to retire and surrender
when my brave-fierce heart has gone weak and somber.

Your love is my sunset, prefect place and shelter.


-jackie



Tuesday, October 27, 2015

October

The overflowing love I have is deeply intense,
burning every inch of my inner force and self,
If my warmth and fieriness touch your soul
believe me, trust me, it is embroided with passion

But my love please hear my heart's solemn plea,
My somber heart had been bruised and scarred
desire to feel it, touch it, let it beat as if your own

My love for you is lovingly providing, selfless
I was frightened to discern you and to love you
But I have chosen to abandon the dreadful fear
To give, to risk, to lay all my feelings so dense

But my love please hear my heart's solemn plea,
a rose full of fragrant has thorns; it pricks and cuts
I'm set to receive pain, heal me, no don't desert me

Alas!
If one fateful storm, and you'd choose to neglect me
Return my heart though bleeding, beaten, ripped
My love please hear my sorrowful and solemn plea,
Leave me with pride-surrender it unruined if you'd flee



-- jackie perfinan

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Love and Melody

You and me, we are like a heartfelt song
The lyrics is me and you're the melody
Don't you feel to me is where you belong?
Aren't we just a simple perfect harmony?

But like any song we may run out of tune,

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

A Heart's Fervent Love

Imagine the clear blue skies during spring,
That’s the beautiful bliss to me, you bring
The leaves that drop when it’s time of fall,
That’s how I saw your eyes, whenever I recall
Have you heard the calm sound of rushing stream?
That much serenity is you just like it’s a dream.
The hot color of blood in deep intense red,
That’s my love for you that I haven’t uttered
My eyes, you haven’t stared in my eyes have you?
The bliss, sadness, calm, love lie in there anew…
Yes, everyday my fervent love for you is reborn
And my fierce heart waits even if at the end it’ll be torn.
-Jackie Perfinan

Sunday, October 4, 2015

confession of fear

Beginning to write this took me so much courage. We were strangers weren't we?
Okay I am scared. Very scared actually. My heart has been tired for trying and failing. So many times. You came in my life when I was so weary, so exhausted. And yes I am so afraid. One day you arrived. I was just planning to say hello. I was planning to let you see just how you saw me the first time. There was no plans for me to stay. But you, you pacified me. You make me understand so much things without you speaking. From planning to walk out of the door after saying hello I decided to stay to be your friend. For you to be my friend. But you, you saw my shades and colors. You understood me like no one has ever done. You talked to my very sad soul. I got so scared. I am so scared. You are just so "perfect" for me. You were everything in my mind. Why? Why does it have to be you? And I am so scared to gamble. Not after my heart being broken so many times. Not when my issues on trust have been stained. Not now that I am not even sure what I am to you. You bring me so much happiness, a kind of happiness that I have never felt. It is such a peaceful happiness that it scares me so much. You always know the right words to say. You hold my heart in a way that it brings me to a peaceful place. It is you. You are the first person that I have ever met that put me in this peaceful place. In a right place. But me. I am so flawed. You. I see no flaw in you. When I finally "saw" you, I got so scared again because you were someone I was afraid to lose. But again who am I to you? I am afraid to try now. I am afraid to put my heart in danger again. No, I am walking away before my heart breaks again. You found me and I cannot take the chance. I don't know who I am to you. No. I am not ready to hear who I am to you.

And I have to walk away now. I need to protect my once bruised heart. In my own perfect world I knew I wanted you to be the one. I was willing to gamble but I got scared of who I was to you. Who I am to you. I am afraid. And I don't know what to do.

I see no flaw in you. I am so flawed. And I know I was in love with you when I could not look you in the eyes. I was afraid because I know my eyes will speak and will never lie to you. And now I need to walk away. My fear tells me to walk away. Thank you for bringing me to that peaceful place in so much bliss.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

Himig

Paano mo nga ipapaliwanag ang ligaya kung ang kasabay nito ay takot?
Paano ba bigkasin ang mga salita kung ito’y minsan ng nagdala ng kirot?
Maaari nga bang lumuha at masaktan dahil sa labis na hatid mong saya?

Sumanib sa akin ang kalagayan at ganap sa isang perya
Halakhak ng damdamin umaagos hanggang sa aking isipan
Sumisipol ng bagong tugtugin at kay gandang musika
Yan ang iyong dulot sa aking pagkatao at buong kalooban

Ang lahat ay tila isang musikero na gustong may ipadinig,
Inaaral na matutunang tumugtog ng kanyang guitara
Nangangapa, sumasabay sa kung saan dalhin ng himig
Yan ay damdamin na tila hindi ko ma-awit sayo ng tama

Ako baga ay parang musmos na sugatan ang tuhod
At ikaw ay bagong kalaro na handang magpasaya dito
Bagamat hindi handa ang puso kong lagi nalang natitisod
Sa labis na ligaya at ngiti na dulot mo, naghihilom muli ito

Ngunit, paano mo ipapaliwanag ang ligaya kung ang kasabay nito ay takot?
Paano ba bigkasin ang mga salita kung ito’y minsan ng nagdala ng kirot?
Maaari nga bang lumuha at masaktan dahil sa labis na hatid mong saya?

Kung ako’y maging handa para sayo, ibibigay mo ba ng buo ang puso mo?

-Jackie Perfinan


Friday, September 4, 2015

Painful Bliss

you were bound to convey pleasure and pain,
she was ready to accept them as if to sustain
her heart with the prowess to endure and bear
the heart that bleeds and relentless to tear

you screamed passion for someone else's name

she chose to watch you hum a heartfelt hymn.
she blames you not since it was clear and plain
and her love is as solemn as the sound of rain

you were like a drug, a heroin; she was the user

she was drawn to cease, to let go and surrender
hence tried to withdraw, to forget, mostly grief
but her bliss is you, so she returns with relief

her love for you is like an ancient rocking chair

she moves, she cradles, yet it brings her nowhere
worst! it breaks, it collapses together with her
that may wound her soul and it will scar forever

then one night, that fateful hour, she broke down

dragged her stabbing pained self! this ruined one!
if you knew her, know she owned undying strengths 
She's a pearly white formica; hard rock, she stands

tonight, her feelings for you still pours so freely,

however, her finger touches that love with finality
she'll remember you always like her favorite summer
her suffering ends here but your memory will linger

she has loved you, it was eternal

yet she was wounded, she is a mortal

- jackie perfinan


Sunday, August 30, 2015

Palaisipan

Bakit?

Bakit mas madalas na walang kasagutan sa mga tanong?
Ako ay manghuhula na lamang ba pagkat hindi na makapaghintay?
Bakit tila mas madaling sabihin ang mahal kita ngunit mahirap panatiliin?
Hindi gaya ng pagpapaalam na kay hirap bigkasin ngunit kay dali naman gawin...
Bakit nga ba likas sa atin na mas mabilis tayo ay mang-husga? 
Ngunit kay bagal ng pag usad ng pag-tanggap at pag-unawa?
Marahil bago pa man dumating ang mga kasagutan...
Ang lahat ng ito ay labis ko ng naintindihan...

Minsan...

Minsan ako ay sa hangi'y kumapit...
Nagpa-agos sa haplos ng araw sa tag-init...
Sumayaw sa ilalim ng bituin at kabilugan ng buwan...
Natulog habang bumubuhos sakin ang ulan...
Malamang kung ikaw ay nagbabasa nito ikaw ay naguluhan...
Magaling! Pagkat ako ay iyong naintindihan!

-jackie perfinan

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Lavender, Rose, Lily and Her Heart













She had waved farewell, turned her back and drifted away,
From an island of lavender fields and torching addicting weeds
Yes, with blazing beliefs that this is not to lead her astray
The tormenting rush of blood through her veins of veins!    
She screams in mighty and fervent tears of freedom and glee

Touching a land of peaceful chaos, a land of roses where she lay
It allowed her to stay quite longer, thorns pricked her inner skins
“Unconfined, bluntly”- she thought of those pricks on her as fey
Alas! she dreamt of the scent of lavender in the islands and weeds
Gathered her oars, left the roses and rowed back to frightful agony

As she stroked to rough warm waters, a modest lily caught her way
The lily emulated, echoed her being, her voice, and all of her needs
She swore she would row from night ‘til day if the lily would stay
Before dawn a harsh truth snapped, the lily belonged to someone else
Short lived it was named, she painted it in oil as if it was not to flee

In the rise of the red moon, on the lavender field she ran and lay
The sweet scent lulled her, dragged her, pulling her to deep dreams
Dreams turned to delicious nightmares, found herself in a sad bay
She watched her soul roll in lavenders and roses and addicting weeds!
Bleeding, wounded, bruised, the rage and the scars she’d hated to see!

The oars all wrecked, her spirit drenched, her soul almost lost!
Her heart. It was broken. Her heart was still beating yet bleeding....

-jackie perfinan

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Para kay Glaiza
















Kay tagal mong hinintay itong tamis ng tagumpay,
natagalan man ng saglit, kailan ma'y hindi bumigay
kay raming mong oras na hindi man lang sinayang
patuloy kang nangarap,pag-asa'y hindi nadarang

O kay daming pagkakataon na ikaw ay tinanggihan
batid kong ikaw ay lumuha at ikaw nga ay nasaktan
marahil sa labis na pagod ang huminto'y iyong naisipan
hindi lamang pagod ng katawan at puso, kundi kalooban

Pero patuloy kang lumaban; sumabay sa agos ng buhay
ang iyong bituin ay inabot kahit minsan ay nanlupaypay
Bagamat may pait at hapdi ang sugat ng iyong nakaraan
hindi ka kailanma'y bumigay at patuloy ka ngang lumaban

Sa lahat ng iyong tinakbo at pinagdaanan sa iyong karera
Maging ang iyong hilig at pag-ibig sa musika't sa pagkanta,
Pag-mamahal ng pamilya at pag-papala sayo ng Lumikha
ay siyang naging iyong lakas at dahilan upang magpatuloy pa

Oo, kay tagal mo naghintay para sa tagumapay na kay tamis,
Ito nama'y dumatal sa tamang panahon dahil sa ika'y nag-tiis
Di baga pag pinaghirapan mas masarap akapin at tanggapin?
Karapatdapat sayo lahat dahil sa kabutihan na iyong angkin!

Maraming salamat sayo Glaiza Galura o de Castro ka man
Ikaw ang sa amin ay nag hatid ng inspirasyon at kaligayahan
Nawa'y ikaw ay patuloy pang pag-palain ng May Kapal
Pagkat ikaw ay talaga namang tunay naming minamahal 

-Jackie Perfinan

Friday, July 24, 2015

But My Love is a Candle


This fierce ache in my heart is a cowardly calm, 
A drop of boiling, melting candle wax on my palm
The intensity is pricking; the pain is stinging
Alas! as the wax hardens, the hurt starts vanishing

Then here's my love for you, not gone, still strong
Blame me not; I've fallen in love with you all along
Though you've chosen to pain me, it has not stopped me
My love for you is a river, screaming, raging so freely

If this ode of mine reaches you, be it known that it's true
What real love, passion; feelings of the soul can really do
Yes, like a candle, it may slowly die as the wax melts down
It melts yes, but when gathered can create a brand new one

You may elude or desert me, but my love is a candle

It melts yes, but when gathered can create a brand new one
                                                                                  -j.perfinan

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Summer



You are a touch of warm breeze on my skin
a pretty laughter that brings me so much grin
You are an evening walk along a busy avenue,
and our quiet talk is just peaceful when I'm with you
Your dark brown eyes are my blissful thoughts
You are my sweet caramel and tiny alcohol shots
a dainty sunflower in a silent field is who you are
and my velvet skies when it's dark with no star...

- jackie perfinan

Monday, July 20, 2015

Mirasol












Ikaw, ikaw nga ay saki'y gumitla,
Maamo mong mata ay kahali-halina
Tila mirasol na nakatingala sa araw,
Ningning nito'y sa puso ko'y nagpahiyaw
Ikaw nga ay Mirasol, nagdulot sakin ng saya

Sayo, oo sayo ko muling nadarama,
na mahaplos ang aking pusong balisa
Ang isip ko'y may tanong at pagtataka
Ako nga ngayo'y ay totoong nangangamba...
Ngunit ikaw ay Mirasol nagdalala ng sigla 

Ako, ako nga ba'y lilisan at lalayo na,
Pagkat damdamin mo'y may hapdi at sugat pa?
Ang nais ko lamang sana ay hilumin ito
Hindi ko sadyang ikaw ay tabuyin palayo
Pagkat ikaw ay Mirasol na hatid ay panatag

Kung liparin ng hangin ang aking pagsinta,
Doon kung saan wala ka ng takot at pangamba
Ang hiling lamang sana ay buksan ang pintuan
Luha mo ay papahirin at ang mata mo ay hahagkan
Ikaw ay isang Mirasol na kay payapang pagmasdan


Ang aking hiling ay wag akong layuan
Pagkat malulumbay ang puso ko at isipan
Ikaw nga'y biglang sumibol sa aking kalooban
Sa pagitan ng kulimlim, sakit at tag-ulan
Kaya't Mirasol sa tag-araw ang iyong ngalan

-J.Perfinan